Boredom? Wanderlust? What can it be?

Bored. Bored. Bored. I am bored. So so so so, sooooooo sooooooo BORED.

With what, you may ask? Well, um, hm. Let's see...EVERYTHING!!!!!!

(Well...Let me explain).

I have always been a person that gets bored very easily. I am a do-er. I enjoy doing things, I enjoy being busy, I enjoy going places, I enjoy the feeling of "doing." All my life I've been this way, but most recently (as in, the past three months) I have had this continuous, over-whelming feeling of boredom ALONG with the need to travel. When combined, they seem to equate into something very odd. Wanderlust.


Wanderlust (Definition): A very strong impulse to travel. Yes, my friends, I have been itching to travel again. To go places! Do things! Ahh! I even get crazy thinking about it. Ever since YWAM, I have been content with just packing my bags, getting on a plane, and leaving. But about three weeks ago when I made the choice to go ahead and stay where I was instead of getting the heck out of here, I've felt slightly off. I am itching to go out into the world once again, to get out there and to start what God has in store for me. But, my problem is, I am ready to go like, right this minute. And the thing is, God seems to be thinking a little differently right now. Remember my last blog, when I talked about my need for patience? Well...yeah. I have a feeling that that is exactly what I need to be learning right now. How to stay put, sit quietly, and wait on the Lord. Maybe then I will be ready to hear (and act upon) exactly what He has in store for me! And that should slowly cure my need to get OUTTA HERE! Then again, saying all of this is a little too easy, but doing it couldn't be harder.

I am also always in need of the reminder that a life with God should never, ever be boring! By just being in his presence and spending my days solely with him, I have already found the cure for my case boredom without even realizing it. While this is also easier said than done most of the time, I have now created a small list of things to do for myself and for God in these next couple of months, and will begin my newly inspired "Me & God" journey! My small list consists of simple things such as spending time in my journal and bible when I am alone, keeping God in all of my daily activities, and beginning some of my new-found passions (like photography)!

And it seems that I have written enough thus far--so I will update you all again soon!

Love love love,
Kelci

A season of patience.

I would like to let all of you who have been checking up on my updates (since I've been home) know that I am not going to the School of Evangelism any longer (at this point in time). I had an intense couple of weeks with God to really figure some things out, and have decided that right now at this point in my life, I do not need to do this school yet. A few weeks ago, I was really struggling with the idea of dedicating myself for another five months towards SOE, or just staying home and seeing what God could have in store for me here, because I wasn't really feeling any clear direction from God. My main question was, do I stay here or do I go there? I prayed and focused and sought God for so long, that I began to feel like he wasn't answering my questions. But through confirmation after confirmation, all he had been saying to the entire time me was:


Kelci, you may choose either path. Neither decision is wrong, neither is perfectly right. But either way, I will honor you in your decision if you continue to seek me. I will be with you no matter where you go or what you choose to do. I will never leave your side.

I had been SO scared that if I didn't choose SOE that I would not feel as close to God during these next five months. As if, going to SOE meant growing with him but staying at home would make him farther away from me. But, that's such a wrong way of thinking on my part! Although I am positive that I would grow with him during SOE, that doesn't mean God isn't here for me at all times no matter where I am! God is everywhere! I don't have to go to a YWAM base to feel his presence...I just have to continue to seek him, and he will always meet me, right here. (Not that his presence isn't strong on the YWAM tyler base- it most definitely is- but you know what I mean I hope ;)

And during this entire process, I had also been doubting his awesome plans for me! Staying home doesn't mean that I'll be doing nothing, it just means that God now is opening doors to things he has for me here at home! Speaking of which, he has already opened up so many doors and he continues to  reassure me everyday of the awesome things I will be doing here back at home as well. I know that in my heart I was created to go places, to see the world and God's people, and to spread his love- and trust me, I am not the type to sit around and do nothing... but I know that I know that I know that in the near future he has some crazy things in store for me, even if I am called to a season of "patience" and waiting on him for more of what's coming next, for now.

I promise to keep you all updated on those things!! But for now, it looks like I will be focusing on work, maybe a photography class or two, and the awesome community (you guys!) around me. I'll try and get a fun video up soon for everyone or something, but we'll see ;) I hope that all of you have had a great start to your new year! Love you guys!

Love love love,
Me